January 23, 2008
Maybe someday... ;-)
So much to say about classes... but so much more to say about Peace and I!
Here's what I was thinking. Coming back to college I wouldn't be seeing him and therefore wouldn't be thinking about him and this possible "crush" would just go away. If it even is a crush. But no. I just think about him more. Why? Aim! Talking to each other semi-frequently. Not really helping. And now Math wants to play match-maker and took over my aim today and was talking to him as me. Yikes! She was pretty good, actually. Until she made a very bold comment and I had to wrestle the laptop from her. Told him my computer was momentarily commandeered :-)
But we've been talking for hours, which involved me running from dorm to dorm and finding a computer because we kept leaving to go to other dorms. And this is one of the things we ended up saying (starting in the middle of the convo):
Me(10:44:24 PM): besides... you know i L-O-V-E you. but i have to be a little mysterious!
Him(10:44:33 PM): hahaha
Him(10:44:34 PM): nah
Him(10:44:49 PM): My zodiac says my closest friends need to be blunt
Me(10:45:11 PM): well, sorry. not blunt here. guess we're not that close. so sad...
Him(10:45:19 PM): haha, u so are
Him(10:45:24 PM): nice try though
Me(10:45:42 PM): what?!?!
Me(10:45:44 PM): am not
Me(10:46:02 PM): when have i ever been blunt, might i ask? please refresh my memory
Me(10:46:17 PM): nope, not close
Him(10:46:42 PM): Ok, tell urself that
Him(10:46:45 PM): blunt to me though
Him(10:46:48 PM): very sweet too
Me(10:46:50 PM): what!
Him(10:46:51 PM): perfect in a way
Me(10:46:52 PM): okay
Me(10:47:00 PM): awwww
Me(10:47:03 PM): make me blush
Me(10:47:08 PM): stop that!
Him(10:47:28 PM): Well, u are awesome, adorable, wonderful, sweet, kinda, fantastic in EVERY WAY!
Him(10:47:36 PM): times infinity!
Me--actually Math(10:48:22 PM): right back atchya
Me(10:48:42 PM): actually, if i'm all that then you are my other half
Him(10:48:48 PM): aww
Him(10:48:51 PM): !
Me(10:48:52 PM): you complete my circle
Him(10:48:56 PM): U r awesome
Him(10:49:12 PM): y r we so distant by geography, yet so close spiritually
Him(10:49:14 PM): I will never know
Him(10:49:19 PM): but i do miss u mucho
Me(10:49:43 PM): i dont know. the future is always open
Me(10:49:56 PM): so no worries
Me(10:50:02 PM): oh, and miss you more!
Him(10:50:17 PM): maybe we will wind up together someday
Me(10:50:21 PM): maybe
Him(10:50:22 PM): that we don't even expect
Me(10:50:42 PM): i think it's a very good possibility
Him(10:50:53 PM): Our souls are so connected
Him(10:50:57 PM): its amazing
Me(10:51:04 PM): i know!
Him(10:51:05 PM): u r def completing my circle
Me(10:51:56 PM): you have no idea
Yeah, am I missing something here? Is that really hat he said? Am I imagining it?!?!?! What do I do? Do I just wait? Do I go for it? What does it all mean? How can he say these things to me! Ahhhh
I'm going to wait. Not wait, but move forward slowly. Feel him out a bit. Become better friends. I think I am a firm believe in the whole concept of a good friendship before dating. So yeah. No sudden moves. Just don't go insane while I'm doing all this!
Oh but I wish I could've posted snippets from some of our other conversations. Then it would be clear why I'm so confused sometimes. But I guess I really do sorta like him. I think I'm pulling the major denial card...
"Love is friendship on fire"
scullerymaid at 12:40 a.m.