July 22, 2005
Fear is Fear
Fear:
It seems there are many definitions for fear. Here are mine...
Fear- loneliness
Fear- becoming a spinster that has never known love
Fear- getting divorced
Fear- having handicapped kids
Fear- not being able to have kids and the look on my husband's face
Fear- dying while giving birth
Fear- painful death
Fear- people that look at me and see what I'm not
Fear- failure
Fear- heights
Fear- spiders
Fear- roller coasters
Fear- planes
Fear- criticism
Fear- friendship
Fear- those closest to me
Fear- addiction
Fear- disease
I also fear the world, even though I can't wait to enter it. But then the only reliance I'll have is myself.
So, I sit in my chair and look at all these things I fear, some serious and some not, and I remember that others have the same fears as me.
"If fear is what I am made of, then I fear myself."
scullerymaid at 6:48 p.m.